Fuck Me Gently With a Chainsaw

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I feel depressed lately. I keep thinking about my personal relationships with everybody and they suck.

Yesterday Arron asked if I though we'd be friends forever and I said yes. Because honestly, what have we not had to overcome? But honestly, I'm scared to death of losing everybody. Ever since Harley, I wonder everyday who is next.

I've seen Kristen everyday since we met. Crazy. I hope I don't fuck this one up.

And Happy Gilmore. I keep thinking that bottom is gonna fall out. Maybe there is no bottom. Like the cartoon where you're standing over a cliff and you're floating and the only reason I'm not falling is because I refuse to look down and realize. It's gonna take an act of god, though. Act of God.

I also need to restore my personal relationship with Jesus Christ. I'm working on it.

Anyway I love you all. Leave me messages.


Audra

I'm back.  WOOHOO.  I'm not sure who reads this anymore, but. . .I love you, whoever does.

So. . .life is chaotic right now, but Harley's death has made my parents really laid back so that's a plus I guess.  I wish my sister was less of a blankity blank.

I also wish it wasn't so hard to earn certain people's trust back, but it's gonna take an act of god for me to give up, so. . . I'll just work at it like a crack addict up in rehab.

Call me.

Am I more than you bargained for yet
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear
Cause that's just who I am this week
Lie in the grass, next to the mausoleum
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(A notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it

Is this more than you bargained for yet
Oh don't mind me I'm watching you two from the closet
Wishing to be the friction in your jeans
Isn't it messed up how I'm just dying to be him
I'm just a notch in your bedpost
But you're just a line in a song
(Notch in your bedpost, but you're just a line in a song)

Drop a heart, break a name
We're always sleeping in, and sleeping for the wrong team

We're going down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it
[x2]

Down, down in an earlier round
And Sugar, we're going down swinging
I'll be your number one with a bullet
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down (down, down)
Down, down (down, down)
We're going down, down (down, down)
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it

We're going down, down in an earlier round (Take aim at myself)
And Sugar, we're going down swinging (Take back what you said)
I'll be your number one with a bullet (Take aim at myself)
A loaded gun complex, cock it and pull it